It;s been a while

It’s been a while

It’s been a while

since I was crazy enough 

to love someone

now I am just crazy enough

to dance in my room alone

pour everything you left in me on white canvas

write about every man 

but not about you. 

It’s been a while since you gone

and after that I picked men who

left themselves

so I was sure they won’t

leave me 

but they did

they always did 

because I am not crazy enough

now to love someone

and they know it. 

even that boy who was

delusional and drunk 

all the time. still 

the smartest one 

(and he lost his mind) 

see- I did it again

write about every man 

but not about you. 

it’s been a while 

and I hope you have 

your hair long like

you always wanted to 

It’s been a while and now 

I am different I think 

I could be better

for you now 

It’s crazy

I know where you are

but I can’t find you 

and it’s all because 

It’s been a while